放火的人~

我从来没有恨过人~
从今天起~
我知道哪些人应该交
哪些人不应该交~
可能是我报应吧~
现在有人放我火~
但罪就放在我身上就好了~
不需要讲她~
都说全是我的错~
是我笨~
我是猪~
我为了tam她开心没有想到你们的感受~
那是我的错啦~
要恨就恨对人~
还有那个男的~聪明点~什么毒烂毒烂~
还有放火的~我只有说我输了~
受害者~我抱歉也太迟了~但还是对不起~
最后一句，劝告大家~
不要给情绪控制~不然你就有我的下场~
要做某种东西时，请三思~想后果~想应该不应该这样做~
在此~那些看了这个文章的人，不用跟人们说我在这写这些~静静就好~
李贤会从今天起死了~
这样笨的李贤运不会再回来~

nth to say

Today i went to watch "the legend of fist" with friends..
Actually at first i dont really feel comfortable getting inside...
Bcuz, i think of the moment i go to watch movie with you...
I feel kinda sad at that moment...
Im tryin veri hard nt to think of u...
Its killin me actually...
I actually tryin very hard nt to sms/call u since..... u knw tat i knw tat.....
Even so, im tryin 2 get myself as busy as possible...
to control my emotion, my miss toward you...
ITS REALLY KILLING ME!!
When i saw ur relationship status change to "single"
I started to feel worry again...
"plz... plz nt tat.... they r gud friends... omg tats my fault.... tats all my fault nt her fault...."
I wanted to sms u... bt i was afraid... i was scare...
I dont wanna to get rejected in sms....
I have been thinking....
When u will start to treat me as normal again...
y u can doing well with others bt nt me??
Y is it happening to me?
The answer is gv myself is tat u r angry with me...
U frustrated with me already...
u hate me....
(bcuz last time u used to say "if i hate/angry with you, i wont reply ur sms/call)
Now thats happening to me....

无题

我只是想知道~
我想知道你的一切~
我只是想要你与我分享你的不足~不高兴~
我更不可能用可怜的眼光看你~
因为可怜只是说的~说了之后~感觉就不在了~
我是关心你~我担心你~
我不想要你承受着一种压力~
因为我在乎你的一切~
还有~你不奇怪~你是很坚强的女生~你比谁都坚强~
对不起~
我觉得是我错了~
我太感情用事~
我没有哭~但心里很苦~
我很害怕~就是不知道为什么~就是很担心~
我只是想要你知道~
在你伤心时，我会在你身旁~
虽然不在你身旁~但我心还是在你那里~
我想要帮你解压~
我想要为你做我能做的事~
你的伤心~我也得服气一些责任~
因为都是我的关系让你烦~
让你难过~
我不想静静的陪你~
我要你跟我说所有事~
我想要在你身旁陪你度过这段难走的路程~

25/09/2010

i slept at 5am~ wake up 730am~
I'm tired as well as sad~
I am so stress~
Thinking of these affairs cause me like hell~
I think i lost 2 friends from my silly mistakes~(think only lar~ dunno yet)
and in d morning i lost MY LOVE ONE~
She is moody~
She is unhappy~
Maybe thinking of the mistakes that i have caused her~
Now, I'm suffering as well~
Moody
Sad
Lonely
I really hope that my love one can talk with me and sms me again~
I LOVE YOU!! And i always do!!!

24/09/2010

The only purpose I went back rembau is to see her~~
Just only for one day~
It is worthy anywhere~
See her work~
See her smile~
See her being serious~
It's worthwhile to come back here~
The sad thing,
is I need to go back tomorrow early in the morning~
I can't go tampin for 2 weeks~
This is killing me actually~
Anyway, the 3rd week will be my happy week~~
I can go tampin again~
Wait for her
See her
I cannot describe the feeling
Because it is too wonderful, too warmth~~
I like to be with her...
This is the truth~
I love you~

20/9/2010

Wake up in the morning~~
OMG!! Its 750~~ 10minutes to go for accounting class...
I was rushing... listening to the song "bumble bee" by Maksim..
Run to the Room... Sit down and listen to lecture...
In the room, i was thinking what dream had wake me up..
This is a sad and weird dream i ever had..
I dream of her that she hug with a fat man... SHITZ!!
So damn jealous and sad that wake me up that make me wanna cry...
Today I only realized that i am so sensitive...
i can thought of the dream over and over again...
NON stop....
Afternoon, I went to Wangsa Maju and grab the guitar...
The funniest thing is, i was acting cool by taking the guitar..
And actually i have 0% knowledge, totally newby, in guitar..
But i still ating cool in it~~ ><
At the end of the day,
I listened to the "canon in D"
which is so relaxing...
Calm down my mind...
n call me 2 fal aslep..

The Love Story of Pachelbel...

Pachelbel在他10几岁的时候，流浪到英国被英国
一个小村庄的琴师收养，之后他天天听那个他弹琴，
也学会了钢琴。
在他们旁边的镇上上有一个女孩子叫
Barbara Gabler，家里有钱有势，Barbara Gabler也
是镇上最漂亮的女孩，自从到教堂听Pachelbel弹的
曲子，就爱上了他。很多有钱人上门向Barbara Gabler
提亲都被拒绝了，因为Barbara Gabler心里只喜欢
Pachelbel。但女孩比较害羞，从小被宠到大的
Barbara Gabler一直不敢向Pachelbel表白，后来
Barbara Gabler就找了个理由，说要去Pachelbel
那里学钢琴，她对Pachelbel说自己热爱音乐，希望可以
拜师学艺。Pachelbel很高兴的收下了这个徒弟。
但Barbara Gabler她的目的并不是弹琴，所以几乎
不把精力花费在钢琴上，遭到了Pachelbel一再的责骂。
Barbara Gabler心里委屈，但还是一直跟Pachelbel，希
望Pachelbel能明白自己的心意。终于有一天Pachelbel
对Barbara Gabler说：“你走吧，你真的不适合弹钢琴。
而且你也不喜欢钢琴。”Barbara Gabler听后，对自己
说：“不要说我不行！Pachelbel。我回去一定要好好弹
琴，半年后我要拿到本地的钢琴第一名的！” 半年里，
Barbara Gabler天天练习，饿了就叫家里的用人送些吃的，
困了就趴着睡一会。半年一转眼就过去了，
Barbara Gabler参加了比赛，果真的拿了奖。
Barbara Gabler想拿这个奖杯去Pachelbel向他表达
自己的爱意Pachelbel已经走了。当时正值战乱，Pachelbel
被征去打仗，Barbara Gabler说：“好，我等他回来。”
就这样Barbara Gabler等了Pachelbel3年多。
在这期间村长的儿子看上Barbara Gabler ，村长的儿
子很清楚Barbara Gabler已经心有所属，就叫人从前线运回
来一具碎尸体，说那就是Pachelbel，但没有人可以对证，
Barbara Gabler相信Pachelbel真的已经死了，趴在"Pachelbel"
的尸体上哭了3天3夜，那时，村长的儿子买了很多的礼物去找
Barbara Gabler提亲，Barbara Gabler没有理睬。
在3天后晚上， Barbara Gabler割腕自杀了。而Pachelbel
在Barbara Gabler离开的半年里，他发现没有Barbara Gabler
在身边，自己少了很多很多的快乐。Pachelbel在
Barbara Gabler离开后才发现原来自己已经不知不觉的爱
Barbara Gabler，只是因为她学琴不努力所以就埋没了对她的喜
欢。当时他准备写一首歌，做为向Barbara Gabler求婚的礼物，
当他完成了卡农的1/3的时候。他被招去打仗了，在战乱中，自己
的生命多次都是九死一生，每当心中不舒服的时候都会想到
Barbara Gabler，想到教她弹琴的日子......那段时光真是值得
怀念啊。之后他完成了卡农剩下的2/3。
在Barbara Gabler自杀后了第2个月，Pachelbel回到了村里。
他从村民的口中知道了Barbara Gabler的故事和她为自己做的
所有事后，他咆哮着，放声大哭。他找到了Barbara Gabler的家人，
问她现在葬在哪。她家里人都不肯告诉Pachelbel，随后的
一次礼拜，Pachelbel招集他们村和Barbara Gabler村上所有的
人，他坐在钢琴前强忍着泪水，弹出了卡农“Canon(D Major)”。
之后，在场的所有人都落泪了。

对不起

我真的好苦恼..
我绞尽脑汁..
我想了想自己的错误..
但你还是一句话...
没有
你又不要对我说发生什么事情...
一直让我瞎猜 ...
你一句...
没有
你知道吗...
那就是我噩梦的延续...
说不会想很容易...
但不要想很难...
是我错的话...
让你生气...
让你困扰 ...
为什么你不要告诉我...
你让我猜了三天三夜...
我没有睡好...
很烦...
你知道吗???
不要这样折磨我了...
告诉我原因...
我觉得我做男生做到很失败...
只会瞎猜...
在对的时间做了错的事...
我人生中犯下最错的错误...
也是最伤心的错误...

Today... The day back to KL...
I have a very uncomfortable feeling in me, myself...
I hate the feeling to be abandoned..
I really hate it!!
Why she suddenly do this so me...
I dont like this feeling..
She doesnt want to tell me anything.
Or she did tell me but i dont wanna believe it to be true?
I know something had happened to me before all of this started...
What i have done wrong??
She doesnt wanna tell me...
Did i too nagging??
That make you feel i am too damn naggy??
Please...
I hate this feel...
I cant eat... Cant sleep...
I dont wanna get addicted to this feeling...
Can you tell me everything...
anything...
I dont wanna to be abandoned by you...
You are the one who i care the most....
Please dont do dis to me...
can you??

虽然
你们都说
男人写的东西
男人说的东西
都是骗人的
但我很坑定的告诉你
我写的
我说的
每一个都是真心的 <3

A Question From A Friend...

a frIenD aSkeD mE...

"WhaT dO yOu haVe lEarnT sO FaR In coLLegE?"

I rePlieD,

I haVe LearNt...

tO sPeaK eNGliSh...

tO pResEnt mY ideAs...

To SOciALizE wIth OtheRS...

To eXPloRE mYSelF In tHE nEw EnVIRoNMent...

acTuallY,

I wAs LYinG...

ThoSe aRe nOT TruE aT aLL...

I onLY RePliED tHE QuesTIon iN tHe waY tHAt hAS BeeN ReQuesTED...

ThE TrutH is,

DuE to SeVERal ObsTaclEs oN tHe PatH BeTweEn

YOU & ME,

I HaVE LeArNt...

tO ApprEciATe you,

ApPreCiaTe aNy MoMenT tHaT I cAN bE WitH yoU,

No MaTTeR aN HouR, A miNutE, or a sEcond,

ThE moMent is ThE mosT pROpeRouS tHing thAt i cAn hAvE iN mY LifE...

tO ChEEr yOu uP,

WheN yoU FeEl SaD, sO dO I. It SpReaD tO me aS weLL...

I wiLL tRY my BeST tO RelIEvE yOU, tO MakE yOu LauGH...

BeCausE I dO noT WanT yoU tO be SaD...

tO MaKE yOU SMIlE,

ThE SmiLE oN yOUr FaCE iS aLwayS tHe CurE oF aLL mY IllnESSes..

YouR sMilE makEs me HappY...YoUr SmiLe BrinGs WarMtH to Me...

tHe MomEnt u SmiLe aT me, Is ThE moMent I gEt My MoTivaTion tO maKe yoU SmIle aT mE agAIn.

EvEn So,

MosT ImpoRtANtLY,

I HaVe LearNT

to ThInk oF yOu 

WheNevEr & WheReVer I gO...

tO miSs yOu WholE nigHT LonG,

So YoU WiLL nOt bE LonelY, 

'Cuz sOmEone tHEre...

Who~~~

CaRe aBout YoU...

wAstEs mOsT oF HiS timE oF hIS Night...

<3    JuSt oNLy tO MisS yOu    <3

 'CuZ

YoU aRe ThE oNLy OnE wHO WorThWhile FoR Him....

To MISSsssssssss.....

I WiLL MisS yOU aLwayS...

我想要你知道.......

                       .......我想要让你你知道......
当你高兴时，我希望你能享受每一分每一秒你快乐的时候.
因为有人希望你开心.
当你伤心时，我会陪你.
我不想让你一个人独自伤心.
当你哭时,我也会哭.我会哭得比你大声.
我不想你做最伤心的那一位.
当你孤单时，我希望你第一位想到的就是我.
因为有人比你还要孤单.
把你通通不好的送给我,
将你最好的留给自己...
因为
我会给你最好的...
你是我的最好的...

~~我病了,也中毒了~~

早上起身...
haqiu...
病又来了..
我严重的鼻子敏感又来了..很久都没来了的...
不管啦...当着没事情发生继续我今天的生活...但都还是没什么心情...听课也不专心听...
下午和朋友去逛街...
下雨零到脚，吹冷气，脚开始痛....觉得脚有风湿...痛得厉害...
走着走着...因为我的疲累与疼痛,我开始

emo了..

真的病了...
我知道...
真正问题不是出在这里....
是我
中毒了...
中.了...
"想你的毒"...
干嘛你这样残忍让我服下这种毒....
Q.Q
我很用力的不想你...
但那毒性太强了...
我无力抵抗...
越是抵抗,毒性越强,让我更想你...

为什么?!?!为什么?!?!为什么你这样残忍?!?!

 她喝的是"FB的毒",为什么我会喝下"想她的毒"....
不公平...
给我解药...
好吗??.
想你虽然很幸福,但也很苦...
有一种想见但见不到的伤痛...
真苦..
能给我解药吗??
下次我也要让他喝下"想我的毒"...
你要小心哦.... >.<

                                      就是这个人...让我喝下这毒...T.T
                                                 如果看见她，能告诉她我好想她吗??>.<

The REJECTED 20seconds...

THINK!!! THINK!!! THINK!!

YA!! There’s a KICK..

A 20 seconds talking.

That could make her smile.

“Message has delivered”

Tell her that I wanna to make a call.

1st CALLING….

“du…… du…… du…..”

2nd CALLING….

“du…… du…… du……”

3rd CALLING….

“du….. du….. du…..”

Sigh…. Why couldn’t call her?? Why couldn’t receive my call??

With the FACE of 

DisApPoinTmeNt & saD,

Started to think sTuPiD tHingS...

Started to think wHat shE's doInG...

Started to think wHat haD HapPeNed tO hEr...

Think at the another way,

MAYBE,

She put 100% concentration in the study,

Prepare seriously for tomorrow

LAST & ONLY

Chinese Examination

The subject she likes so much

And put a lot of efforts.

By the way,

sAdnESs was still.

Because,

The call has not been pick up.

SIGH….

Feeling

hEaRtBrokEN…</3

The tears behind the mask

That no one can ever see…..

发泄一下....

你什么事情哦妈咪？？
干嘛一直骂我！！
家里生意不好又不是我还的啦！！我想的啊？？
银行打过来吧了吗？？有什么大惊小怪？？只是少进二十块吧了吗？？没钱进啊？？
还有
说什么不要每天驾车出去。说什么车油很贵！
摆脱！昨天出去我用自己打油的好吗？
还说什么要省钱.不要每天出去。我有每天么？
上芙蓉，也只不过十块罢了.
你又拉要省钱这topic进来。说什么要体会下店里的状况.
拜托啦！！
店里欠银行钱，是千千声，百百声的。你去芙蓉也不只是两位数罢了.
假如欠银行银行一千的话，我上芙蓉也不只是最多十块。只是一千的一巴仙.
不知道什么是business里的materialistic吗？！？！
说什么省钱省钱，你能省多少钱？？Sikit Sikit menjadi Bukit.
好心啦!!去一趟芙蓉八块钱!!要还一千块的话，需要存一百次叻咪.
Sikit sikit menjadi bukit,已经过时了这句话。
问题根本是出在店里的management.
不会管理stocks,
没有做accounts,
不会track creditors.
好心你啦.不要叫我体谅.
体谅解决不了问题，省钱也不是解决自己问题的最佳办法.
一回来家里，就是烦！没有一次是没有为你们烦过一次.
现在我也知道为什么姐姐不要回家了.
听到你们自己的错误而烦，很废咯...
老人就是有老人家思想..

IT’s THURSDAY!!

Moral Studies lecture, Miss Su, “Hey guys! You all can ciao (go) already.”

YEAH! I can go back hometown already. Desperately, I wanna go back hometown as soon as possible. I don’t know why, I just wanna go back. Although I know I will not have a chance to see HER today also(that’s mean tomorrow or after maybe will have a chance to see her la… haha…), but I still wanna go back as early as possible. HIAK HIAK HIAK…

6pm, I arrived home, ate my dinner, went to seremban

The happiest thing is, haha, I can drive my car to HER house to stalk her (but I didn’t see her at all from my car, T_T), even though only for a few seconds. SATISFACTION…. (=

12am, when I send maywah back to her house, I got another chance to stalk her (actually is her house, haha).

I think, STALKING on her has been adopted in myself… Hehe… Since you know, STALKING is CARING in my dictionary. So, I stalk her, means I care about her. >.< hiak hiak hiak...