我很想说

星期四到星期日~(29/10/2010-31/10/2010)

在这几天内~
我每一天都有和你见面~


星期四晚上~
找朋友作为借口来见你~=P
我很想念你当时的样子~

星期五就一起读书~
最记得你说，“哦~原来你的趴趴熊比我重要！”
当然不是啦！我很在乎你送我的东西~当然我反映会较大~
但因为你这句话
我感到一丝丝的感动~ =)


星期六~
和平常一样下tampin~
去见你~
sms时她说了我意想不到的答案~"strong"~~ ><


这几天我都很高兴！
这并不代表我礼拜不开心~
今天我很开心...
但要

离别

时，
有一种感觉~我很不喜欢~
所以我上了巴士~
到最近的一站~
我很讨厌这感受~
虽然说只是一星期~
但我还是感觉很moody...
我想这三天已经成为我的习惯了吧~

我不想离开这段时间~

再和你一起时，我一直祈祷时间过得慢一点~
当一个人最享受一段时间时，时间过得最快~
当然~
一转眼就要回家了了~
一个短时间的离别~
让我很很很很想哭~

我爱你

我爱你爱到我控制不了我自己了~

一个关于你小小的事，我也很关心~
一个关于你小小的事，我地看得很大~
一个关于你小小的事，我能高兴起来~
一个关于你小小的事，我都会沮丧~
一个关于你小小的事，我都会吃醋~
一个关于你小小的事，我也能生气~
一个关于你小小的事，我也会感动~

每个关于你的小小事，我都想要知道！

这些~
都是你不知道的事~

20-10-2010

Worse day ever...
Having Accounting paper... shit...
I do silly mistake on the major mark..

Afternoon,
Have been thinking whole day,
all the problems i have and solve my worry feelings,
by singing...

Sms her on the night,
and i have been said by her that I'm emo~
What the??
I don't emo at all...
Ask for reason but never answered...
HAIZ~~
I don't know what happen also.

I really understand you are in the moody's condition..
One phrase of English Word in message broke my heart again..
Helpless,
Is all what i felt~
I don't know what to do about that..

Some more,
2010-2010~
She greeted others but never greet me~
okay...I have really nothing to say about this... No "right" no left...
Now i really get myself in the EMO stage...

CLOSE THE PC!!
GO TO BED!!
CLOSE MY EYE!!
SLEEP!!(hopefully i could)

20-10-2010 is not my day....
keep it to the pass...
shut up and never ever come back to me again 2010..

16/10/2010

I was having examination of macroeconomics at the morning of 8am~

Waiting the time to pass as fast as possible~

“Students~ Stop writing~”

I dropped my pens into pencil case~

Run out from the exam hall~

Go to the bus stand to go back hometown~

My plan was,

Go there to give a big surprise to her 

by showing up myself~

When I arrived at Tampin~

My plan was ruined, by some changes of timetable of her tuition class~

When I tell her that I am at there,

She had already in the bus~

My thought was, to call her back~ just let my plan spoil~

And actually I was trying to stay her back~

=.=lll

Oh my god! The really unexpected was,

She really came down from the bus~

This really made me touch~

I felt like to cry that time~

I tried to calm down.

But she sweated because ran from bus stop to me that used quite a lot of time~

Some more she walk under the sun~

This made her more angry at me~

And she looked at me at a very fierce way~

Hehe~

Her face was just like want to kill me up~

I didn’t think of anything~

Just keep saying sorry~

Hopefully that she look at me again~><

And really she started to talk to me again~

HAPPY!!

This incident is~

One of the sweetest memory in my mind~ =P

13/10/2010

Everything was going fine today.
I was so happy throughout the day.
I had fun playing with the guitar.
Singing along with it as well.

In the night,
because of  
ONE WORD
 in facebook,
it spoiled my good mood today.

That word!
Oh my godness...
Really make me damn jealous..
And somemore my friend is in my room.
"I keep my emotional calm",i told myself.
I did my best to control...

I said to my deepest heart,

"Now i have no right to do everything. I not even have to right to care what word they use to describe her. I don't even have a right to feel jealousy."

I decided to hide this from her.
However, she not that I was weird and ask for reason.
SIGH!!
I don't wanna tell her.
And I knew that she really wanna know what is the matter.
And she started to be a little bit "cool" to me which i hate the most in my entire, whole life!
ARG!! I told her.
This action made me regret because it showed my immaturity and naive.

When I think i don't have the capacity to hold this feeling anymore,
I went out to have a walk.
Open the music to the maximum.
Hope that it could cover my mood.
But it doesn't..

Anyway,
The worse part is not here.
because of some circumstances,
message can't be replied.
First of all,
I don't know anything,
and my old habits came out again.

Thinking of the negative stuffs.

Why the message couldn't be send to me..
Is she angry with me because im not in the mood?
If it wasn't, why couldn't she reply my message?
I only found one reason deep inside my heart.

I kept calling her..

"the number you have dialed is currently unavailable. You can use bubble talk to deliver what you like to say."

OH GOD!! I really felt like punching at the WALL!!


Once i arrived in my room,
There I only found out that the phone is out of credit.
Although it solved some of the problems that I am stress of,
NOT all the problem have been solved.
That is my

STUPID!

RETARDED!

SENSITIVE!

EMOTIONAL!

JEALOUSY!

Feeling...

By the way,
I was trying to comfort myself.
Lying on the bed.
Think logical.
Think sophisticated.
I have fallen asleep.

By the way,
The star really knows me well...
It said VIRGO is very emotional..
It said Virgo is the most jealousy star of all.
And I'm agree with it.

Emotional is a obstacles for all the rationality.

It is not an easy task to solve.
Emotion is not a simple thing to understand

And I am sorry If I disappointed you~ From all my saying, I am just too care about it~

    /////
 q(^ ^)p <<<<<<< that's me~~  a person with a pig nose... SMILE!!
 ( (oo) )

9/10/2010(SATURDAY)

I shouldn't come back yesterday.
If I didn't come back,
I would have a chance to go out with her!
I'm so sad and regret.
OF not reconfirm with her about the date of going.
I had been emo-ing for whole days beforeI lost control of my emotion.
The fire of sadness was thrown to her.
That's my second regret o the day.
Hopefully she didn't mad at me.
Sorry.


Hypnotized me by busying myself to the peak level!
But still,
I still can't think of it.
At night,
I was saying that I'm emo and stress about the assignment.
LIE!
The same case makes me so regret.
I'm telling a lie that i have been desperate and panic about the assignment.
And about the msn status,ya, i wrote it today, not Wednesday.
Those are just a lie for me to not to tell you the truth.
Because I don't want you to feel sorry.
So forgive me of throwing a lie on you.
I swear that i only will tell a lie to you if that lie is about you.
And the rest is true and I like you to keep believing in me,
I will not lie about my feeling.


But the happy things happen on the night in the call.
At the end of the call,
An ordinary word, unexpected,
"GOOD NIGHT".
was spoken out from you.
For some reasons,
It makes me smile~
This is the first time you use this word to greet me.
Usually you end up saying 晚安 to close the conversation.
GOOD NIGHT just makes me smile..
And you successfully cheer my mood up..
I only here to tell you

~CHU WA EH~

*You most probably not going to use blog for quite sometime. So please don't feel sorry after reading this. Because I'm already Okay by the time you read this.
The reason is I just don't wanna you to feel sorry and sad.

f***ing Monday!!

Morning wakeup~
omg... im tired...
Afternoon, HAqiu!!
afternoon, stomachache!!
evening, back pain!!
evening, back pain!
Night, Headache!!
Night, HAQIU again!!
But the worse one is sneezing... keeping sneezing...
I hope i can take off my nose... SHITZ man!

Recently,

There are many things have happened to you..

Yup...

Actually,

I have responsible about what had happened to you...

Because of my retardation, 

I have caused you so many

TROUBLES...

That you should have not faced...

I'm very sorry of all of this...

I'm regret of it..

I hope that i have a time machine that can fly back time...

Even though, it is not possible to do so...

That's why,

I am here to tell you...

Don't put everything in your heart...

Share your troubles with me...

I keep it to yourself...

I can be a best audience of yours...

I can be your suggester for you...

I can do EVERYTHING!!

Just to make you forget all of this troubles...

Just to return the smile on you face...

Just to create happiness for you...

At last,

I like to tell you that...

No matter what happen, I will be by your side...

I will be you shield when someone attacks you...

I will be your sword when you need to "repay" what your enemies have given you..

I will be your most useful medicine when you get hurt...

Just TRUST me, tell me everything....

I never keep any secret from you... 

From,

A maybe truthful and helpful person...