Movie

It has been a long time that I never watch such a inspiring and touching movie..

You learn when you lose, and you will appreciate after a losing.

What I feel now, is that I miss those moments that have been gone..

It's all my fault that brought me those feelings..

Because I was and am not caring...

I did not think of what were you thinking about me..  I never did..

To be honest, you are totally right about me.. (You know me more than I know about you.)

I am a coward, scared of being abandoned from the society.. 

I am living other people lives.. I was walking using people's sandals. I never actually create my own path..

After the break up, things were different from my view.
I see the things, which was useful to me, useless..
I just do not feel like doing anything anymore..
Lacking of motivation and inspiration...
Emptiness...

这张牌

我已失去了这一张牌....
我已经没有资格再找你了~
我没有资格再吃醋~
也没有资格关心你~
虽然会想你~
虽然会有冲动想拿起电话讯息你~
但这一切都完了~
我最后想说:
你未来会找到一个比我更好的男人~

When we got older:

When we were old, you and i will sit on the cradle chair, enjoying our silence moment. I will see you sewing, and
When we were old, we will spend time in the kitchen, cooking the dishes that you like although I don't know cooking.
When we were old, I will hug you from the behind when you were cooking, and kiss you on the cheek.
When we were old, we will walk in the park, hand on hand, looking at those children who play in the park happily, and I'll say,"do you want to have a child again?" And you will stare at me with your big eyes, and said,"how old are you? We have became grandparent already! You still want to have child?"
When we were old, I will go for vacation, only both of us. We will go out till night, and left our last bus. We will walk back to the house and I will say,"I hope I were young, so I cant carry you back to the place."
When we were old, you will put your head on my legs, and tell me all the story that you enjoy. Then, I will keep touch your hair, like touching a kid head.
When we were old, you will hug me in the stomach when you sleep, it gives you a feel of warmth and safe.
When we were older, i will touch your hip and you will jump. You will stare at me, smiling, and say,"do you think you are teenager playing this? ARG.. *pinch me*"
When we were old, you say you will still fed me. And i said i will kiss your mouth, and you'll say,"YER!! *pinch me* Later your 'whatever' see us doing this, then how?"
When we were old, I will help you massage first, then you help me to massage.
When we were old, we will watch our favorite shows together. Smile, laugh, cry, nd hug together.

When we were old....
You and I...
Will live together...
Happily....

20/04

今天，我要去韩国了~
但是今天我很不开心~
我想要留下来，不想要去~
哭了好几天~
要去机场的时候~
我心里开始乱了~
我想回家~
想陪你讯息~
不想丢下你一个人~
因为我不想一个人，不想要你一个人~
一道机场，心开始乱了~
w我眼泪开始不停使唤了~
我去厕所~
r然后要上机的时候，
宝贝你叫我不要去~
w我眼泪开始真的不飚了~
w我知道去年我做错了选择了~
我想回头~
b宝贝当你叫我不要去时，
w我心很痛~
一到机上，
n你叫我好好照顾身体~好好玩~
z这一次，我戴上我的帽子，哭了~
我姐姐朋友坐我旁边，他问我怎么了~
w我只说头痛~
宝贝~对不起~
是我错了~
我爱你~
你对我来说是最重要的~
我知道你在我的心里有多重要
重要到足够能让感觉到我心痛~
没有任何事能~只有你~
我很爱你宝贝~
我现在想回家~
我一次又一次的哭~
一下去厕所，一下是打电话~
宝贝我知道你也很想我~
宝贝你也很心痛我不能陪你~
一日不见，如隔三秋~
没有你我的时间，真的很难过~
真的很怕~
心痛~
我想回家~
你就是我的家~

vietname trip... =)

16-19February..
wake up early in the morning...
Go to:
Seremban KTM station >> Nilai Bus station >> KLIA >> LCCT >> Vietnam Saigon Airport..
This is the first time go somewhere by plane...
It was such a nice experience..
The trip included:
Mey
Ferrand
SheeEn
AkKiong
Cindy
Terry
JieFei
Racing
SeeMun
Chenny
Me
Nam(tour guide, Vietnamese)

First day we stay at Kelly Hotel, Second day, we stayed at a hotel somewhere in mu ner... >< Third day, we went back to Kelly hotel again. =)

For the first time in my life, I felt the feeling to be loved..

I watched the a Hokkian drama "Mother House"..
I heard a sentence,
"找老公要找勤劳的~没有钱,不用尽~肯做,疼家庭,为家庭着想,就是一个好老公~"
"You need not to find a fortunate husband, but you need a husband which is a hardworking, keen to work and put family as the first thing in mind."
That's the words that my mom always tell me.
@.@
Anyway, I just write those for fun.

haha...
This quote makes me think:
What I will be in the future...
What kind of man i will be?
Will I change 360fdegree, from a "kinda-good guy" into "bad-man"?
Will I love my family?
I still haven't found the answer..
All those questions can be found in future..

Now I concentrate on what i have to do as a student, as well as as a boyfriend.
Actually being in a relationship, is not that bad as what people, especially old-minded person, say..
In a relationship, sometimes i get

              Courage

                       Support

                               Hope

                                     LOVE

First Love..

It's so sweet...

Everything is so wonderful..

I wanna be with her..

I wanna take care of her..

I wanna love her...

The sad things that i have in this holiday is,

i ) The misunderstanding that i had made.

ii) The less chance of meeting each other.

The second one is really making me melancholy..

I really wanna see her.. I can't due to several reasons..

"I really wanna see her on the weekends" quote from Justin Bieber's BABY

I really mean to see her...

I wanna have a wonderful holiday with her..

Because I knew I won't be able to get such chance after my holiday ended..

I wanna made a wonderful, sweet and unforgettable memory with her...

Due to this factor, 

I really appreciate our moment..

      I like to see her in the eyes.

                        I like to pinch her cheek.

                                          I like to hug her.

What i like the most...

                              ~I LOVE TO BE WITH HER~ 

I really appreciate her~

What's more sad is,

My holiday is finishing...

Once i go back Kl, I seldom have chance to meet up with her..

Thinking of this, i feel grief.

Hehe... 

I really easily get jealous..

Knowing last time who she had a crush on,

make me jealous also...

WTH!!

Macam ni punya jealous..

I am really UNBELIEVABLE!!@.@

Even though, I am really happy that she was being honest to me.. And I have learned honesty from her... =)
"It's not good to lie in a relationship"
I hope that she will be honest to me always regardless of thinking of my feeling... 
                           Your honesty, is a candy for my heart...

She is mine now..

I will love her using all of my heart...

That's what I said to myself..

And I will do it.. =)

Dear...

                                   I <3 U

Believe me that I will do anything for you... 

But I will not die for you, unless it's necessarily to do it; for example, sacrifice myself to save you.. =)

I will not die for you, know why?? 

                   ~My LOVE for you is UNDYING LOVE~

I have to start with LOVE you first... 

MUACKZ~=)

I was charging my phone in my room. Yet, I read my book at living room. Every 2-4minutes gap, I would go to my room and take a look at my room, whether there was a message or not.

I remembered I send my message, and I keep going to my room, countless time, yet there was no message during the time of 3.20pm to 3.50pm. So, I send the second message.

Oh, now I knew she was watching TV. =)

I’m small gas, so I was disappointed. I was the only one keep going there and here, just for a message.

Anyway, this is not a good reason to sad about... 

There were many things happen today... Happy things indeed. =)